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| 04:22pm 03/03/2006 |
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so now iv been doin the college thing for a while...meh its cool im dancing all day and working nights...its not too bad though...still with colin definatly a perfect match...i love him to death-i dont even think people read this nemore so it doesnt really matter. neways im working at teds montana grill and soon mad mex...u should stop in and get some awesome burgers....hmmm im getting an apt with paul in the spring and then maybe going to cancun in june..then a summer of awesome fun and stuff...then schoool......i love how everything really seems to be coming together...
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| 01:29am 22/08/2005 |
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tomorrow a great day...5 amazing months-what im doing yet is unknown...i love ya more than anything-also i can whole heartedly say i hate packing for college it's a drag.....grrr |
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| 04:46pm 14/07/2005 |
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COLIN AND I ARE STILL GOIN STRONG>>>>yay!!!! |
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| 12:27am 15/05/2005 |
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Okay so i've been so busy lately but no fear, im still alive. I have been dating colin now for a while and it's the best ever!!! but neways iv been trying to relax, getting super excited about going to school. but im also trying ish hard to get all me school shit done, dance and keep up with my friends. i don't know what to do. im in love with this song called dance with the devil for some reason, it is really good tho. yes a lot has changed this past year but from all the bad stupid shit, things are looking really good. tim has a girl paul has a grl shea has a gril and i gots a boy. so the once single group is offically in a relationship. i think it's way cool. i love the four of us because we truly know eachother. we talk about the best stuff and are really relaxed. i can tell you how much you all mean to me andhow great the things we have been through are. im a little sad because i never talk to nic, rj, frank, joe, jon, trev, melis, emi, rossi any more. i miss you all so much but for some reason we don't hang out. it gets to me a little cuz we used to have such great times. im hopeing that we again will hang ut and that the growing apart stuff doesn't last forever. i guess thats just how things work. i hope everyone is doing well and getting along. Call me up sometime. as for christina i hope you life is doing well and you aquire a happy longlasting relationship with someone that really loves you. cuz i think that would be good for you, but what do i know. i have been writing a lot recently and i think my stuff is really good. it's personal but i think it is scripted well. iv got a very long day tomorrow but i love you all and hope you are having a great time. |
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| 12:24am 21/03/2005 |
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everything has been going so good. tonight i was out and on my way home i saw the imperfectness of this world. I can even begin to purge these feelings of repent. I don't have a date to my jr. prom and cant get1. i have this feeling of dipair and dicuragement that i could be something great. my motivations is sinking along with my hopes and dreams of being happy. i always used to have fun. it was like a never ending mystical dream that was brought to the most screaching halt. i don't know where to go for help because ever1 has something better than me and what i want. im falling and loosing contact with all that surrounds me. i want to care so badly but i can't find it in me. tomorrow i clean then i work then i play then i go to court, that should be nice. im so lost...i need to go to bed. im afraid of the future, i will update when things shape up, i can't handle this.
(shine on u crazy dimond)
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| 07:36pm 19/03/2005 |
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as far as today...not too bad dance, painting, lunch mall...i had a pretty good time but now im home doing nuthing...i hope to be going out tonihgt but we will see how that worx out...i feel a lil out of it right now like i have a lot on my mind or something it's kinda weird cuz i don't have nething on my mind.....daaaah weirdest feeling ever....this week i hope to work a lil bit u know try and get some money cuz im runnin a lil low and i don't like it...i don't even know what to write...every1 is still pretty much the same (meaning goofy and hilarious) i miss that aspect of our friendships....but it happens unfortunatly i have grown apart from you guys a lot ....i don't know if it's good or bad but it's weird.....
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| 02:06pm 09/03/2005 |
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so bored but it feels ike im on speed or something, my mind is traveling like a badillion mies a minute..im packing getting ready to go have some massive amounts of fun the the vegas land. im hoping that in a few weeks the weather wi shape up. Im also hoping some1 from haverford jr. class will ask my to the jr. prom. I honestly don't want to go with some1 from outside, but i also am way to fucking azy and afraid of rejection to ask some1 myself. it actuly kinda sux. who knows maybe i will. but then again there are so many grs that need dates and oh so few nice cute single boys that are looking to have fun. meow bums that won't dance. I dunno wut im even worried about half the kids in my grade don't even talk to me and think im some freak. but fuck them im not changing my ways for a little sympathy. DAHHH i want to go , but i refuse to go alone. newho i'l see ya'l around.
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| 08:07pm 08/03/2005 |
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today was such a strange and all over the place day. Like it started out a angry, then i was so happy, then confused, and then deressed, then happy then hilariouse, then i paced, and now im tired and want to go to bed.. It fucking makes no sense...oh welll i don't mind there were ups and downs and im in a great mood now. It's ike getting close to 11:30 nd im not tired but i should go to bed, so i will. I just wrote a nice letter to matt cuz i didn't get to hang with him after dance. poopers its so sad. But hopefuly we can hang out tomorrow.. if not i will be up at state to have a great time and meet a ur friends. p.s-my brain is turning to crazy, im seriousy loosing it. Like tim was teling me and i was ike nah im hyper...he was like rae listen to ursef...dah-im insane. Oh well i'll see ya'lls in a week i guess and i will miss ya's have a great time without me...i will behanging with ya' don't fear the reaper. doot doot doot......mwahss
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| 01:51pm 03/03/2005 |
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the sun is comming back slowly, and things are really feeling ship shape. it's definatly great-i love all of you...i don't regreat anything now that i look back on how much i have learned and what i know...so thank you me and every1 else that contributed. I HEART YOU!!!! i don't even know what ese to write, like my friends talk to me so they don't read this, and every1 ese if we need to talk we call eachother (even tho phones are the devil)...what ever i seriously am so content with ife...i need to find a summeer dance program and also a summer job... nothing ese for today my attention is d=rifting from writing this thingy...
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| 09:03pm 21/02/2005 |
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This weekend was al sorts of crazy tak. Got in to college sweet dea. HUng out with my best friends. went to party at pats...so cute...lots of drunk freshman from haverford (kinda scary)...chilled with my homies..had lots of rehersa for my show comming up this weekend (fri, sat, and sun)....what else oh gosh lots of ambuance commotipong and me having anxiety attacks (thank you guys for sticking in there for me and keeping your cool)...Milk shakes... project work....cosi- dude i fucking did way too much i can't handle it. next week is gonna be crazy crazy i can't fucking wait (omg so much daning and tiredness) julliard aud. on mon. then no schoo tues cuz im gonna be poop tired.....PS small dick i heart you |
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| 01:35pm 11/02/2005 |
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so yeh, so many choices for tonight, (new york, auto show, fasion, and other rediculus rache things)....shows tomorrow i hope that my plan worx -holla oh wels if it doesn't...lets se we are gonna have fun neways... what else i dunno i think im gonna get some ex-rays for my foot but ehh we will see...people are getting sick and thats so bad cuz i don't want ne1 to get ssick....
I LOVE YOU ALL AND WILL NEVER STOP, EVEN IF WE DON"T HANG OUT- IREAY DO MISS YA'LL
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| 02:43pm 07/02/2005 |
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oh gosh the superbowl....ehhh good game good game-sike prolly one of the worst games we have played (pressure sux)....newho i hope all is well withevery1 and that i will be hangin out again soon. have a crazy month ahead of me but then its hard core march (aka. fun gallore) i can't stinkin wait...the countdown has begun (3 frickin weeks left)...lalalalalalalalala- call me up sometime we will get some tea...or catch up on all that we have missed-life seems to be going on in a peculuar way...i don't mind tho-it's full of suprise... |
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| 11:29pm 06/02/2005 |
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tepm.= warm me=baffled (so we lost who care, good season, and lots of great memories)...tomorrow shall be fun to the max. |
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| 04:50pm 01/02/2005 |
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TUESDAY!!!!!,
today was pretty rockin...i dunno i just for some rediculus reason love this semester, like it fucking rocks.. 1st of alll colin is back at school and he deffinatly brings bright to the day (silly kid)...newho my cass are great like real weird mixes of kids..but thats okay cuz i want to get to know all of them they a seem realll cool. Im offically in weight training and i need some new sneaks..im gonna do that in like an hour or so. what else oh American studies was so rediculus today...we didn't do nething but we did and i couldn't stop laugh the whole class-which reminds me i should do my homework. i dunno then i leave school at 12;16 and it fucking rocks. i can't wait til it get warm out again because then im gonna just go.....go where ever the car takes me....i need like a tent or something so i can camp out at the shore really shadly (hmmmmmm)...OH well life is so mother fucking great...i should find out in a few day from uarts...i also have a show on sat it's free, i also have my juliard aud. on the 28th and im nervous as all hell...oh wel
i hope every1 is chipper and feeling the new season to come...oh and by the way, poop-yes yes poop everywhere!!!!! I MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!!-too bad |
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| 05:36pm 31/01/2005 |
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BYE BA WITH COACH GAL>>>yes thats right im now in fitness cass quick every1 touch my muscles...hahah i love every1 so much, im feeling like this quarter is gonna be a piece of fucking ake....my toes are healing quicky, aso i dunno whatever...i have a show at swathmore college on sat...its free and it starts at 7 or 8 so every1 should come....lalalalala
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| 11:48am 29/01/2005 |
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Weekend so far has been awesomeness.. i hung out with nic for a lil on thurs..then frii tried but she had to go and i was sad. but no fear. neways friday me and tim went to the city and got my sister oodles of gift cirtificates (she is 20)...then we got some coffee and we cme home. we seriousy had nothing to do so we went to my house and ordered pizza (yummy!!). then we sat in my car after getting his fone for ike 40 min just talking...it was cool. then shea came wi moreen and we went to paus needless to say we played vedio games and watched awesoem home videos. i couldn't play ddr cuz i broke 2 of my toes in rehersa yesterday (oh well)..so when they no1 was looking me and tim started paying halo2. it was super fun (finaly i can run straight and kill things it's excellent)...oh well it is not sat mornig and im just chillin gimmie a call later mwahhsss....
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| 03:17pm 27/01/2005 |
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IF YOU ARE GONNA TAK ABPOUT ME BEHIND MY BACK< THEN DON"T TALK TO ME....DON"T PRETEND TO BE MY BEST FUCKING FRIEND. DON"T ASK ME TO GO TO THE MAL WITH YOU!!!... SERIOUSLY CHRISTINA Y ARE YOU DOING THIS....I HAVE NEVER DONE ANYTHING TO HURT YOU!!!! EVER!!!!!, AND HERE I FIND OUT UR TALKNG ABOUT ME BEHIND MY BACK....I SERIOUSY WONDER WHY I STOOK UP FOR YOU OR DEFENDED YOU WHEN SITUATIONS WERE BAD...you don't even know the extent of haf of it....call me when u grow up and can hod ur head on you own shoulders....
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| 12:50pm 24/01/2005 |
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THIS WEEKEND WAS FUCKING GREAT AND I HAD SO MUCH FUN>>>>>>>>!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! aud is over now i have a few shows and juiard then im done and i go to vegas then spring break h at me.....best 2 months ever...new casses next week and schoo is done at 12:16.....fuck yes 3 weeks till i know if i go away!!! aww the joys i want to get to college so bad.....neways i cant wait the rest of this year is gonna be great....it's so strange to think in a few months i' have known u guys for like a year (joe, rj, rossi, bri, brett, frank, jon, trev) I dunno it baffles me....like member the night i firsat met u nicole and i came to intreduce me and u and joe were in a fight and u were a bitch to me then later we were at TIM"S nad u taked to me and we both knew martina and then we were friends....then jon threw up and there was love confessions, and kim got mad and christina was angry but got over it.....I dunno that night i think im always gonna remember it and it was a year ago....this past year i have learned so much about my slef people and the sysem...not saying i ike the hate tho that sux...i dunno its so weird to see how much trhings have at least changed for me, how many opinions have changed how many ives have changed....I know things are different but if ur reading this i want u to know that i ove u and aways will no matter what ,,,,,peace |
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| 05:05pm 19/01/2005 |
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today, first time i ever head a feta pigs heart...it was amazing- the body is the most magnicificant things...its so unreal but the meaning of all that is real...ife is a great thing and don't take it for granted..say bri and rj today they were smiling that was god because that means they were happy which ment that i was happy...so horray!!!!!!-so yeh this disection stuff at school is great and i ove it and hopefully when im done with dance i can study meds abroad or something go into cosmetic surgury (so great)...um wut the he ese-i seriously am loosingmy fucking mind (but im not it's just im creative)....like making the melon a plow it owuld be so great but rediculus...oh geee- mwahhhhssss ps my new fav food is broiled grapefruit it is so damn good.....we should have a movie night!!!!!!!!!!! |
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| 04:01pm 18/01/2005 |
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so it's jan. 18th....ots of new stuff goin on. Christina hasn't reay been hangin out with me but thats okay cuz she and bri are together and i just want her to be happy. I have and aud. on sat and then on the 4th i have a show and then the 6th my juiard audition....it's nuts- ets see hopeful by the time march come everything wi be stress free. im going on vacation then springbreak (greatness). Paul, shea, tim, ted u guys mean the fucking word to me. Aso been reaizing that the past onng while iv been reay fake but thats not me it was just peope rubbing off on me....horray!!!!- im having a blast dancing a the time getting ready to take the step toward my career....HOLLA AT ME
i descided not to aud. for NCSA because it is reay far and there balet program is super strict on the body type, and mind u not im not changing how i look based on some stupid man from the 18 30 that said dancers shoulld be stick thin.....(ne who) i have taught myself to make gbroiled grapefruit ( so good)...and my mono is comming back a li but wi be gone soon i swear....having a spended time finding a boyfriend, but then i reaized what the he am i doing....he can find me and i can just be happy with my friends....btw DDR extree is the shizzzznattt....i seriousy miss hanging with the uys and nic and meis but i guess times have change... (tear) maybe i wi get to say heo at the show, damn helo's.....so im tired of writing an i don't reay know what else to say...the show wil be great i ook forward to it, finas next week hola back....fitness in 2 weeks with sir gal////////////and schoo is done at 12: 15 so ca's me up if ya's wanna get the hoppin..?
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